How Would You Describe Yourself?

To the open world, I make myself seem much more dark, reclusive, intelligent, and depressing than I actually am.

It's true, however, when I have certain terrible feelings for topics(death, drugs, sexual intercourse, murder). I seem to have two views on every subject, TBH.


Matter of the fact is, I enjoy other people's company and human interaction. Just not when it "directly" involves me. IRL convos are a bust because my knowledge with others is halted due to being socially inept. I don't necessarily try to avoid others, but I do it because I feel better being alone. It's a conundrum, I know.

I also have a sweet spot for romance and caring about others, but I hate showing that side of me to individuals.

I can also be rather sarcastic and mocking subtlety. Most don't recognize it either.


TL;DR: I'M A LOUSY PERSON WHO MORE THAN NOT WON'T GIVE A s*** HOW YOU FEEL OR WHAT YOU DO FOR ME. AS LONG AS IT PLEASES ME. EVEN THOUGH THAT MAY NOT NECESSARILY BE TRUE.

Unknown; this song is for you:

Hmmm... I'd say I'm honest, kind & would be the best friend any one would ever have. I keep secrets, even those told to me online.. I don't take crap from any one, & stand up for my friends. I love to cook, write, draw & play video games alone or with others. I don't see myself as 'pretty' irl though I have had a lot of people tell me that I am so. I also know that I'm not very popular with certain people in my family because they only care about what label is on their a$$ & I don't care about who's label is on my a$$ as they seem to.. <.<; I see myself as a Nintendo/Sony fan & am not much of a huge M$ fan or supporter as the only games on the M$ consoles are crap shooters I personally don't care for.

TL:DR; Online I'm the same as I am in rl. I try to at least get along with others who I may not see eye to eye with & just avoid some others who are more like trolls then acting civil online. I don't expose my real life very much online; & try to keep a veil of anonymity while online. It's hard to stay truly anonymous online; where as every one & their mother is telling you about their bowel movements on twitter.. <.<; But if you see some one named queenzelda, queenzelda01, or just queen online it's most likely me. My username ID is synonymous with who I am as all of my username/ID's are 'queenzelda' as it's my original online username. :3

As I leave you with one of my fav song's:

The lyrics to the song brought about this within me:  "I'm not who I show myself to be. A deceiver. And that I try too hard to get people to hate me.".

Seems rather accurate.

Judging from what you posted about yourself, you seem like...how should I say it. Fun person to be around AND talk to. As evident from your interactions here, I feel.

Side note: I liked the first song and the second was alright.

I am an a** & I know it. I'm very brash & stand up to anyone who gives my close friends a hard time. I can be a nice guy but you have to get to know me better before you realize that I'm a nice guy. Irl I'm more of an a** then I am online. I tend to be a bit nicer online though most times.. I will admit to being a general a** about things in general.

@ UE: Queen is a great & very loyal friend & your assessment of her is right on the mark.

An enigma is probably what I'd label myself as. There are times where I have insight into things as clear as a lens; times where my mind is scattered across the corners of the globe; other times where I just feel a desire to watch humanity suffer in its pitiful machinations; and times where I have complete apathy.

I certainly champion sarcasm too much for my own good, but sadly it is one of the means by which I can feel like 'me'. Thankfully this is starting to become less prevalent though it still worms its way irl.

Despite what I might appear on the outside as well-versed, mature and such, I'm pretty sure I'm still a kid who is prone to emotional fixations of perspective (said emotion being disgust usually). Though people don't really see that part of me often, instead seeing a relatively honorable, upright human being. (At least one of you here has seen the side of the self conceited bastard surface; to be honest there are times when I didn't wish I was like that, and other moments where I just want to show whoever has it coming for them that I am indeed a terror.

When you consider I'm planning to graduate as a medical doctor (or surgeon, but still undecided as of now) you'd wonder how such a twisted soul who sometimes couldn't care less for humans wants to be in a profession devoted to saving lives. In fairness, it's a sense of duty with the role and also actually witnessing the spectrum of human lives that keeps me in a reality check (both away from my inner demons as well as stopping be from devolving into an idler. lol)

I also absolutely suck at deception; I either enjoy the thrill too much revealing my trickery, or people see through me too easily.